fearless |ˈfi(ə)rlis|Last weekend we went camping up Logan Canyon. We passed by the entrance where you could tube the river. It's closed off now and I was sad, 'cause I never got to do it. I remember Cassie, my roommate doing it with her friends. I remember thinking it sounded fun, but being a little scared to do it. I remember a lot of things like that. Having CP, my body doesn't work exactly like others. I'm a little slower, a little clumsier, a little less coordinated.
lacking fear : a fearless defender of freedom, fearless warriors.
BOLD, brave, courageous, intrepid, valiant, valorous, gallant, plucky, lionhearted, heroic, daring, audacious, indomitable, doughty; unafraid, undaunted, unflinching; informal gutsy, spunky, ballsy, feisty. ANTONYM timid, cowardly
I've lost a lot of my timidness since I've been married. I care less about what people may think of me. I'm more daring. I don't worry as much about embarrassing myself. I don't stress in new crowds.
Recently I went out of town sans-Spencer to a friend's wedding. At the shower I was self-conscious and shy and felt out of place...I felt high school. I lamented to Spencer about it, saying, "So, can I not go ANYWHERE without you? Are you my security blanket now, too? Am I THAT girl? The one who is only defined by her husband?" I mean, he is awesome and all, but I always want to be my own person. I don't want to be half of one.
Then we passed by the Logan River, and it hit me. He doesn't define me...he empowers me. I worry less because he talks logic into me. I am more daring because I know he'll keep me safe. I would float the river because I know he'd make sure I got in and out of my tube okay. I don't worry about whether or not he'll think less of me because I can't swing a golf club properly. He'll just teach me how. I skank at weddings because I know he'll catch me before I fall on my butt. (Unless he isn't there and I go down and flash everyone in the process.) I jump off the top of houseboats because I know he'll make sure I come up to the surface fast enough. I don't worry about not eating or walking fast enough because he slows to match my pace. I do silly things in public because I know HE loves me and that's all I really care about.
Around him, I am confident, care-free, silly, daring, proud...I am fearless.